Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Goede Morgen! I hope everyone is doing marvelous! Well this week... yeah this week. Not much happened and well it was simply put a long week. The woman who let us in last Sunday and we left a BvM, we went back on Friday for our appointment. She opened the door, turned around and grabbed the BvM and handed it back to us. Didn't give us chance to talk about what she read or anything. Honestly felt like a slap in the face. And because this appointment fell through we were out in a small town in a the middle of no where for the next four hours knocking doors because our dinner appointment lived just around the corner and it wasn't worth it to go all the way back to Gouda to turn around and come back. I will be completely honest and tell you I was upset. Feeling like I just got slapped in the face and now I gotta go back out knock doors. First couple houses they laughed at us and closed the door just as fast as they opened it. And if this was how our afternoon was going to go, I didn't want to do it. I kind of shut down a little bit and started humming songs to myself. We got farther down a street and I started humming "A Child's Prayer". Once I hummed the line "His love now surrounds you." I felt this huge wave of love sweep over me. Comforting me and telling me it will be okay. She made her decision and there was nothing I could do. The Lord sees my efforts and sees that I am not giving up. I just got teary eyed, sucked it up and kept knocking. The Elders had a baptism on Saturday for a 12 year old young man. 0930 and Zr. Romney and I are on our way to a breakfast appointment with a member that is an hour away. Phone rings and its our ward mission leader asking me to fill in for sick son and give the Holy Ghost talk at the baptism! t-Minus 5 hours till baptism! Get home from breakfast at 1300 pm and I have 30 minutes to write this talk. I was so nervous! I just looked at Filipe the whole time, talked to him and just spoke. Didn't even use the talk I quickly wrote out. He is an incredible young man! Had Zone Training on Wednesday and said goodbye to President and Zr. Robinson. That will be the last time I see them until I go home and visit them in Utah. They go home in just a couple weeks. I am so thankful for them all they have done for me, the missionaries and the church here in Nederland. Okay, now the highlight of my week...I want to share with you my studies: Matthew 11:28-30 "Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me. For I am meek and lowly of heart, and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (The fourth missionary) She becomes increasingly aware of her weaknesses, she becomes increasingly humble, while at the same time she grows in faith and stature before God. She experiences what the Lord said "If men come unto me I will show them their weakness." Ether 12:17 I've been wondering why it is so hard these last couple weeks. I thought I was prepared and ready to tackle this new transfer. Yet the opposite has happened. It's been hard, long, stressful, frustrating. I've been wanting to simply do what the Lord wants me to do. Just do his will. But it was only getting harder. But now I see why...I'm living Ether 12:17. I've been coming unto Christ. He is hearing me, seeing me, and accepting me. I'm being shown my weaknesses to be made stronger. I'm not failing, if anything I am succeeding. I pray that each of us can go to the Lord and hand over our will to him. It may not be easy, it may be painful, but the refining process is a beautiful thing. He will make us more than what we could have ever imagined. I love you all and pray for you all. Liefs, Zuster Young P.S. Thank you Peachwood Ward R.S. for the sweet letter!